Unreal?
Lately I’ve been questioning what is real and what is unreal. This was mostly because of interactions I’ve had on the internet this week; someone said they were going to publish a book of a story I sort of worked on with my mentor. I mean that would be amazing but I don’t think it can be true as my mentor hasn’t even mentioned it. Then a very cool musician and DJ from Berlin said that she loved my song. She said she’d re-master it and play it on her radio show. Again, yes that would blow my mind if someone like her actually took an interest in my song, but really? Where is reality in all of this? Is everyone having a laugh with me? I’ve got feelings. That’s the thing with the internet you don’t actually know who is sitting behind the screen typing, people might not be who they say they are and the things they are saying might all be made up.
This thought has made me question everything!
How do I know if that truck that just rumbled past or the siren in the distance are actually there in reality? How can I know if the birds in the sky are really real? I don’t have a theory to back anything up but sometimes I think that we might be living in someone elses made up reality. I’m not complaining, it’s mostly beautiful with daffodils and kittens and stuff but there are also darker sometimes sinister complexities. Maybe I’m thinking too much, I don’t even know if any of this makes sense. Or maybe everyone knows apart from me. Like that movie The Truman Show where everyone knows that nothing is real apart from Truman. I don’t want to think too much about this. Even if nothing is real, that is ok, I just have to keep carrying on like everyone else is.
Changing the subject. I made some art this week:
I was trying to think of something cheery that might give people a bit of a pep in their step. I’m not sure how convinced people were.
Using the same colour palette I thought it would be good to record this moment in time. You never know, I might be famous one day. This painting actually sold so if I am then that person will be quids in further down the line. Nice one.
I also tried my hand at making a zine.
I’m not sure where the idea for that comic book came about but I felt an urge to make it.
This next painting was based on an interaction at the skate park; a woman (who in fairness was trying to be nice) said that I looked like Miffy. I didn’t say anything at the time and I just tried to skate away in a cool manner. Unfortunately, it’s been so long since I skated the wheels have ceased up so I had to stand there for ages waiting for gravity to do something and help me out. Nothing happened so I picked up my board, came home, had a massive sandwich and then made this. I need to say that I have NOTHING against Miffy. In fact I respect her but when people confuse me for her or Peter, I get quite offended. I’m sensitive like that.
Next week I’ll probably send some emails for work enquiries, someone did express interest in my drawings (but again how am I supposed to know if they are being real with me?). I might carry on doing a bit more drawing. I probably should do a bit more work experience as well maybe something corporate or businessy or in an office? If anyone reads this and would like someone like me in for work experience, please contact me.
That’s all for now.
Thank you,
Fluffy Pulcino.